Ah, A beautiful spring with extreme climates and an flu outbreak

I haven't blogged in a while, not much has happened. Well, maybe the recent cases of people dying due to the Swine Flu outbreak. Heh. Nothing Really? Am I kidding myself? It has been crazy around the world. Earthquakes, illnesses, etc etc. Is the world really coming to an end? Ha, not yet. This world will end the moment it stops spinning around the sun, or when the sun explodes itself. I'm not all that worried. Just trying my best to live through everyday and survive is enough. The climates are very unstable, but you can't do much about it right? YES YOU CAN! Start recycling, save energy, and conserving good water. My science teacher recently showed us something amazing, yet very horrifying at the same moment. She had us fill up cups, beakers with water, and add up the amounts. In the end, we went up to around 10.7 L of water, that is your daily fresh, clean drinking water, used to make ONE piece of paper. Yeah, I know. AMAZING! Stop, think, and redeem yourself of what you waste everyday. I don't even have the rights to talk, and tell everyone else what to do. I know that, but I just want whoever is reading this to realize what is really happening. What they can do, to open up options to save our planet. It takes everyone to make change happen, but it takes one person to have courage to lead it..

Closer!

I've been listening to the same song for 2 days straight. I'm down right in love with it! It makes so much sense, it doesn't seem real. Its okay to tell something follow their dreams even when it seems impossible, it's okay to tell someone that can move on, and cheer up. My favorite line of the whole song, the main line and also makes the most sense of everything is " The closer you get to something, the tougher it is to see it." It is true, the closer you get to your goal, the blinder you get. You will only focus on your goal, so you don't even realize things around you. Such as people, your family, your friends, your lover. Fighting for your dreams is good, but you can't take people around you for granted. They don't have to be there when you need them, they don't have to support you whole heartedly, they don't even have to cheer you up when you failed at something. "The Closer You Get To Something, The Tougher It Is To See It."

Choosing My Path

It's March already, and I haven't posted for a while. Well, much has happened. Its time for me to choose a high school now. Everyone in my family wants me to go to this certain high school they went to. My two best friends are g0ing to different high schools, ones I definitely can't go to. One of them has too high standards, while the other one my family completely rejected. What will my high school life come to? I don't know where to go, I don't know what to do. I'm actually completely clueless about the whole entire high school thing! The programs, the schedules, and the size of the school! I'm going to be so lost! I'm already lost, I'm lost somewhere I can't decide what's the next step to take. I wonder what will happen when the time comes for me to choose a high school. Will I meet new friends in high school? Or will I just be a loner at school with no friends? I hope I can find my way, and see the right path for me soon . God help me find a new path to my new life.

Careless

I haven't posted for a while, forgiveness please! Been busy for a bit, on Valentines Day I had to work. Thank god I was training my friend that day, or else I would be really upset. On Sunday, I went to work out with my friends, then had this big movie mania day. Monday, the family day was a resting day for me. I needed some time for my aching muscles to recover themselves. Today, I had to work, and studied a little for two exams I have tomorrow. They're pretty important, but I really don't seem to care. I just read through all my notes, and the textbooks. Unless the topic interests me, I don't care for it. That's one personality trait of me I dislike a little about. It's a rude trait, if you ask me I rather have a listening trait which I lack. During class sometimes I don't even listen to the teachers, because I'm way too busy daydreaming away. When the teachers decides to ask me a question, I'm done for. Maybe that's a bad thing, but then again a good thing as well. I'm very careless. I don't just mean being all clumsy, but just don't really care for things much. Sometimes, when people talk to me I even ignore them because I'm not interested in talking to them at times. There, I'm careless for their feelings. I hope I can fix that. I don't enjoy ignoring, or not caring for things, but I can't help it at times. Hope I'm able to fix it. The picture is exactly what I look like when I realized that I've been careless again.

Valentines Day

Well, I forgot to post yesterday! Woops on my part, but it wasn't a really interesting day yesterday either. Today at school is our annual Valentines Day Dance! Huuray! .... Not really. It's going to be my 10th year of dances that I won't be asked to go with a guy. Sad, but honestly I don't really care if I go witha guy. I don't like any of the guys at my school, the guy I love is somewhere else. Well, I wish he was here today. For once, I wish I could go with a guy and that's him. Small dream, big difference. Oh well, i'malready grateful my best friends are going to be there, dancing with them will certainly be a lot more fun then dancing with the guys at my school. I might even get to DJ half the dance if they need someone. Happy Early Valentines Day Everyone! Hope all your dreams and wishes for Valentines comes true!

Forgetfulness

Well, it was a very nice day today. Warm weather, clear skies with little clouds. It shouldn't be like this even though it is beautiful. The weather is just another hint on how the world is permananetly being affected by global warming. Everyone is so involved with the nice weather, they had forgotten the reasons why it is so warm in mid-February. Despite the weather, I miss the old ones. The snowy blizzards and freezing wind, that was more like winter. Right now, I don't know whether to consider it spring or still winter. Mid-February shouldn't be nice! I use to love it because I could go home,snuggle up in my warm clothes and drink hot chocolate. Now, everyone is walking around in t-shirts, sweaters, and drinking slurpees. I wish sometimes that it'd go back to the way it was. Cold weather in February made it a nice month, some may disagree, but I really do miss it. Sitting here, missing the snow that is slowly melting away to the bright sunrays.

Changes, Growing Up.

I've never really thought about this, but now that I have realize it's happening its scary. Changes, everything around me is changing. People change, things change, everything including myself. I'm scared of change, I'm afraid nothing will ever be the same again. My friends and I laughing happily after school, or me just sitting here writing up my blog. I'm afraid to grow up, growing up means my carefree days are over. Not that I don't want to take up responsibility, but will I ever be carefree again? is it possible to laugh happily again with my friends 10 years from now? Time, work, our lives will keep us busy from each other, we won't be the same again after growing up. Its scary, yet important. Everyone has a time when they must move on in life, correct? Changing and growing up is something I want to happen and don't want it to happen. I just have to leave it to fate don't I? A change I need right now is the courage to move on with life, I'm so stuck in the past I don't want to look at the future. I hope I can change myself from that. Like a butterfly, it grows, it changes, and it dies. The cycle of life you can not escape is beautiful yet a tragedy at the same. Grow up, change, and to live life to its fullest is the most important.