Careless

I haven't posted for a while, forgiveness please! Been busy for a bit, on Valentines Day I had to work. Thank god I was training my friend that day, or else I would be really upset. On Sunday, I went to work out with my friends, then had this big movie mania day. Monday, the family day was a resting day for me. I needed some time for my aching muscles to recover themselves. Today, I had to work, and studied a little for two exams I have tomorrow. They're pretty important, but I really don't seem to care. I just read through all my notes, and the textbooks. Unless the topic interests me, I don't care for it. That's one personality trait of me I dislike a little about. It's a rude trait, if you ask me I rather have a listening trait which I lack. During class sometimes I don't even listen to the teachers, because I'm way too busy daydreaming away. When the teachers decides to ask me a question, I'm done for. Maybe that's a bad thing, but then again a good thing as well. I'm very careless. I don't just mean being all clumsy, but just don't really care for things much. Sometimes, when people talk to me I even ignore them because I'm not interested in talking to them at times. There, I'm careless for their feelings. I hope I can fix that. I don't enjoy ignoring, or not caring for things, but I can't help it at times. Hope I'm able to fix it. The picture is exactly what I look like when I realized that I've been careless again.

Valentines Day

Well, I forgot to post yesterday! Woops on my part, but it wasn't a really interesting day yesterday either. Today at school is our annual Valentines Day Dance! Huuray! .... Not really. It's going to be my 10th year of dances that I won't be asked to go with a guy. Sad, but honestly I don't really care if I go witha guy. I don't like any of the guys at my school, the guy I love is somewhere else. Well, I wish he was here today. For once, I wish I could go with a guy and that's him. Small dream, big difference. Oh well, i'malready grateful my best friends are going to be there, dancing with them will certainly be a lot more fun then dancing with the guys at my school. I might even get to DJ half the dance if they need someone. Happy Early Valentines Day Everyone! Hope all your dreams and wishes for Valentines comes true!

Forgetfulness

Well, it was a very nice day today. Warm weather, clear skies with little clouds. It shouldn't be like this even though it is beautiful. The weather is just another hint on how the world is permananetly being affected by global warming. Everyone is so involved with the nice weather, they had forgotten the reasons why it is so warm in mid-February. Despite the weather, I miss the old ones. The snowy blizzards and freezing wind, that was more like winter. Right now, I don't know whether to consider it spring or still winter. Mid-February shouldn't be nice! I use to love it because I could go home,snuggle up in my warm clothes and drink hot chocolate. Now, everyone is walking around in t-shirts, sweaters, and drinking slurpees. I wish sometimes that it'd go back to the way it was. Cold weather in February made it a nice month, some may disagree, but I really do miss it. Sitting here, missing the snow that is slowly melting away to the bright sunrays.

Changes, Growing Up.

I've never really thought about this, but now that I have realize it's happening its scary. Changes, everything around me is changing. People change, things change, everything including myself. I'm scared of change, I'm afraid nothing will ever be the same again. My friends and I laughing happily after school, or me just sitting here writing up my blog. I'm afraid to grow up, growing up means my carefree days are over. Not that I don't want to take up responsibility, but will I ever be carefree again? is it possible to laugh happily again with my friends 10 years from now? Time, work, our lives will keep us busy from each other, we won't be the same again after growing up. Its scary, yet important. Everyone has a time when they must move on in life, correct? Changing and growing up is something I want to happen and don't want it to happen. I just have to leave it to fate don't I? A change I need right now is the courage to move on with life, I'm so stuck in the past I don't want to look at the future. I hope I can change myself from that. Like a butterfly, it grows, it changes, and it dies. The cycle of life you can not escape is beautiful yet a tragedy at the same. Grow up, change, and to live life to its fullest is the most important.

Starting Off

My first time blogging on a website, I'm much more use to just writing all my thoughts and feelings down in a notebook. I was suddenly inspired to create myself a blog and start blogging. I'm actually very excited to start blogging, because I know it will be a nice experience for me. For once I'll take use of my camera I received for Christmas and start taking some nice photos. I'll put some of the photos up with my blogs. This photo was found on the net, such a nice picture I found myself saving it onto my computer for future uses. Now I've found the perfect spot for it. Almost like a scene from a fantasy movie huh? I really like this photo, so I've decided to use it as my starter.